Things that Ache my Heart
March 15, 2021
My heart itches when I picked up a broken flower stem
I wanted to itch it so bad but all I could do was shake it off.
I smell burning all the way from the living room
I flash like a strike of lightning to the kitchen counter
Rumbling noise screaming all around the house
All I just wanted to save was my toast.
I didn’t make it in time.
My bread was way too exposed to heat.
Maybe it was never meant to be.
Cause all I see was death inside of a charbroiled bread.
Here I am, driving on the road focusing like a M4 scope zooming in and out.
Out of nowhere, a squirrel came sprinting in front of my car.
I couldn’t brake in time.
In a heartbeat,
I’m screaming,
I’m covering my mouth,
I’m panicking,
My heart is sweating.
The thumping from my chest grew to my brain.
I thought I was going to jail
Turns out, it was just a daily fail.
Scott?
That name is rushing through my veins.
That name is a stain in my heart,
As if a dart left a mark on that special part.
It itches,
It tangles,
But I know it can’t be removable.
Grandma I see you sleeping in beauty.
My heart feels as if I’ve fallen into a cactus and punctures a million times over by tiny pins.
It stings,
But now it has left me numb.
I am not bleeding,
But I know after I slowly pull myself out one by one,
The blood from my body will come gushing out of my eyes.
I am watering you everyday and night.
Why do you still look like the first day I plot you here?
You are making my brain go Tic-Tac-Toe.
If you don’t grow,
I will give you a throw.
It has been decades since you’ve been here,
And all I have done is nothing but a stare.
I knew you weren’t going to mature.
I knew you don’t belong here,
But in nature.