Footprints
March 10, 2021
Through this cloudy lens
I peer backwards
At fragments
Trapped
In spinning memories
The knowledge of
The truth
Does not cease my longing
For
That snorting laughing
Bursting blooms of dandelion fields
Plastic shapes hot from the sun
Screeches of opposing kickball teams
Hunching over a well worn novel
Bare feet squelching in freshly thawed mud
Soft limbs scrambling up rough bark ones
And chocolate milk sipped through a straw
It is as false as perfection
But
As I take each next step
Those memories become
Sanctuaries against
Weighty chains
With barbed ends that
Hungerly dig into soft flesh
And yank me back
They hook around my legs
My chest
My throat
Stealing my air
Cutting off my words
And
Threatening to drag me
Down
Throughout the din
A word sounds in my mind
“Breathe”
Clumps of dirt cling to my sleeves
But I only brush them off
Before pushing my
Aching body
Back up
And proceeding on
One
Step
At
A
Time